This Is How I Disappear

I just saw a commercial.

It’s not really strange for me to highlight a commercial, especially when it carries meaning rather than trying to promote the newest and/or absurd products.

The commercial I saw was simple.

It opened up with a guy on a bike trying to find shelter from the rain at a bus stand, there were a couple of youngster mingling talking to one another. After a while the rain got heavier and the wind blew harder, causing the national flag known as Jalur Gemilang that was hung (I assumed) on the roof of the bus stand to fall onto the road. A car was coming towards its direction. The man from the bike look from the left to right, trying to see the reaction of the youngster and found himself dispointed they don’t care a crap about the flag of our country. He then ran into the middle of the road to rescue the flag and was successful only to receive indifferent and/or weird stare from the youngster. The commercial fade out showing the flag and the man looking up to it.

Yes, there are words on it, I just can’t remember what it was. I was never really good remembering the fine details. But I do get what the commercial was trying to convey. It’s not to show how youngster these days doesn’t give a crap (well, even when most of them doesn’t, but who’s checking?) about the symbol that unite us all. A flag of our proud country. We should be proud of it, honor it and treasure it. This freedom that we have, how blessed we’ve been. It’s too bad we’ve forgotten that our ancestors had shed blood to ensure that the flag would rise high above the sky.

I know, it’s two months too early for any Independence Day spirit. Still, who ever really say we have to wait for the month of August to get all hyped up? We should always be proud to be a Malaysian and honor Jalur Gemilang, the flag of our country. Maybe we’re too young to remember how it felt like when our Jalur Gemilang flag (formerly Bendera Malaysia) was first proudly raised, but we should still always remember the price paid to get there.

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STOP TALKING ABOUT MICHAEL JACKSON ALREADY!

I swear, I’m going bonkers over the whole, “Oh my God, I can’t believe he’s dead” and/or “It’s so sad that MJ died” etc. He’s dead folks, d-e-a-d, DEAD. Get over it and move on. I’m really going to start shooting people at random if I hear another soul went on about how bloody sorry they are that Michael had died. Newsflash people, everyone dies - sooner or later. What do you expect? He’d live forever? No one can live forever, there’s the beginning and there’s an end. Just move on and experience new things - of course remember the good things, but just stop the whole ‘feeling sorry’ coz heck, not everyone’s even sorry about his death. In fact, I’m indifferent about it. My world still turns, I still have music to listen to, I am still able to read, I can walk, etc. So what? The world doesn’t end when Jackson died, it goes on, so move with it.

While the whole world had been worried and saddened by the whole death of Michael Jackson, unlike the world, I have other things on my mind. I don’t know Jackson, as I’ve stated it before. But, I do know my grandfather. Over the years, his health had degrade and his memory wasn’t as good as it used to be. Now, when the world’s seemed too preoccupied by the whole Jackson’s death, I’m more worried he’d forget who I am. The grandfather that had raised me and attend to my silly requests when I was a child, he’s slowly slipping away and I cannot stop it. What I know cannot help me from losing him eventually. So, what I’m trying to say is, rather than worry about how Jackson had died and how his death had effected the whole music industry, why not look at the person beside you, you might lose that person one day. And you won’t even realize it because you’re too busy thinking about other people who was not even there to know you like the person beside you.

Jackson, he’s dead, people who had known him personally, they could probably continue to really mourn him because he had known them as well. But, for the people who had merely been fans, look back at what’s more important tomorrow, talking about how MJ died and how it altered the music industries etc or the person beside you who probably wanted you to just listen to them and talk about other things.

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Yes, I’ve heard.

It’s hard to miss when it’s stamped across Yahoo! and was on my office internal email. Michael Jackson had died at the age of 50.

Frankly, I have nothing to say about it.

I don’t know Michael Jackson personally, I was never a fan and I don’t hate him or hold any grudges against him. Overall, I am indifferent about his existence (or death for that matter). He was on TV, had a number of good songs and controversy that basically destroy himself - at least that was what the papers said.

The thing is, people die, every day, whether you like it or not, whether it’s a celeb. I can’t mourn the loss of Michael Jackson simply because I couldn’t find the energy to mourn anything. It had been a hell of a week and since I have nothing nice to say, I rather not say anything.

Though, I do wish the radio station would stop playing Michael Jackson’s song every fifteen minutes, it’s starting to get on my nerves. You’re sad, I get it, but playing the songs are probably going to make people bawl their eyes more…

Of course, the less hyped up celebrity demises over the course of three days were; Ed McMahon passed away due to detriorating healt at the age of 86 on June 23rd (to be honest, I don’t really remember who he was, but Nya brought it up) and Farrah Fawcett succumbed to her prolonged cancer illness on June 25th.

I could, unlike in MJ case, relate on how sad it must have felt over the lost of Ed McMahon and Farrah Fawcett. Maybe because I could see my grandfather in Ed and and as for Farrah, I know how horrible it is to be robbed away from happiness that was just a second away.

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I’m pretty sure that’s how you spell it. I’m not an avid fan.

I wasn’t even sure why I went to watch on the first day.

I must have lost my mind - nah, not really..

Overall, the movie was awesome! Well, I missed the first fifteen minute because I couldn’t get a dang cab from my work place. Yes, I know I should have gone for driving lessons and get myself a car - yes, I can actually afford a car. I just hardly consider really buying one.

Anyway, the movie, even though I missed the first fifteen minute, like I said, it was awesome. There was a full house - no seats were left empty. I can’t even believe my own eyes when I saw the crowd. The last crowd that big was — I’m pretty sure it was Star Trek. What can I say, people here were not big on Terminator. My friend and I did actually try to get a later ticket, it was impossible. Everything was sold out and we’re only lucky I book our tickets online (and paid for it first to ensure we get our seats).

Though it was a good movie - great CGI, etc. There were still things I find odd, just how did Mikayla (I’ll check the spelling later) manage to get a bandage in the middle of the darn dessert and wrap it around Sam’s hand? It puzzles me…

I’m just going to watch the movie again this Friday… Just to understand the whole movie better…

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I feel like I’m going bonkers.

Apparently, everyone’s trying to get a ticket for Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen.

I know I shoulda bought a couple of those last week. I wonder why I didn’t.

I do feel stupid now… waiting for the cinema online booking site to load…

Can’t even get ONE damn ticket!

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Like it or not, or no matter how much you try to avoid the issue, it’s there in front of your eyes.

Half a year ago, I remember my friend got laid off from work. His company need to cut resources. It was hell on earth for him - I could only guess it was for everyone who had to face that issue.

Half a year later - now, things seemed to get worse. It doesn’t get any better no matter how we try to fool ourselves. So far, I’m the lucky ones. I’m not sure for how long.

Everyone I know are struggling to get by day by day. And no matter how they try to make it sounded like humor, for some reason I know they don’t find it funny at all.

From what I can see, the economy is getting worse, not by the day, but rather by the hour. I wonder when it’ll get better or whether it will. Pretending it’s not happening and that everything was alright’s probably not the best way to go anymore. If it doesn’t get any better by year’s end. I suppose I’ll never go back to school even I really wanted to.

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I’ve abandon the idea of wanting to finish reading Night by Elie Wiesel. It was pointless for me to even begin in the first place as I know it was not the kind of book I could care less about. On and off intellectual basis. I simply can’t understand how someone be impossibly irritating by being repetative. No, I don’t mind repeation, it was just that the damn book made me wanted to actually burn it - I don’t burn books. It’s wrong and no one should ever burn any form of book. Those who does, there’s something seriously wrong with them. But, that doesn’t really matter…

Today had been slow on the up side. That was until I found out that a movie I wanted to watch for a while now was finally going to be on TV. Critiques might not consider it as the greatest movie of all time. But hey, maybe I’m just a sucker for the tech, speed, etc. The movie I’m talking about was Speed Racer. It sure does bring back a lot of memories. I remember when I first watch it at the cinema. It was not all all planned. I was bored at work all morning and was practically pissed with something that I can’t even remember what anymore. So, I booked the ticket online (I do like my old company for this part - they allow us to surf the net just as long as it does not intefere with our work) and made my way to the cinema (which was a fiteen minute train ride from my former office). It was just like that - I decided to be impulsive and go watch a movie.

What made me remember the movie most was this one fact. I didn’t realize it by the time I picked up the ticket, I wasn’t aware of it as I purchased some popcorn and a cold drink. I absolutely had no clue, not even up until fifteen minutes after the movie had rolled in that I would be the only one in the theather. No, I kid you not. I remember waiting as the stupid advertisement appear one after another, I kept looking around. I remember thinking; Where’s everyone else? I was tempted to get up and leave, but I am most certainly am glad that I did not. I enjoyed the movie then and I enjoy the movie now. I’m just surprised by the fact that i never did get around buying the DVD - well, no, not really. I’m a book person after all. Maybe, just maybe I’d get the DVD next month since I don’t feel like going broke this month. Until then, I guess I’ll check the TV Guide to see when they’re playing the movie again.

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I’d say work sucks, but you already know that.

There are nothing in particular this week other than the fact that I can’t even finish reading less than 150 pages book. I could spend hours reading and get through the hardest of book yet I can’t finish this one book; Night by Elie Wiesel. I swear, I thought I was going bonkers over that one book.

Actually there is a reason as to why I can’t even finish the book. With every page turned, I kept thinking - why on earth am I reading a book about someone losing their beliefs? I’m not quite what you call religious either. But, everytime I pick up the book - this would be maybe the twelfth time - I feel like going on a rampage. All I read was a boy complaining and whinning. Yeah yeah, I know nothing about pain and suffering. Maybe. But, I’ve read Anne Frank and it did not gave me the same annoying feeling tugging the very depth of my soul.

Truth be told, if I can’t finish this book by the end of this week, I better off chucking it out of the window because I certainly will never finish it.

I do wonder, how do you lose faith?

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There’s an upside to everything…

I think.

I finally got around to watch MTV Awards re-run. There’s just one thing;

Robert Pattison & Kristen Stewart should definitely be a couple. Neither of them know how use use the comb! Honestly speaking, it is disturbing to see them keep messing with their hair…

That aside, I turned down a job offer. Now finally, seriously, looking to go back to college.

And starting on another Vampire story… Never buy books on sale ever again.

Before that, I’d read Angie Sage’s Septimus Heap series first…

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I was looking forward for the movie from the moment I saw the trailer from a month ago. I wasn’t disappointed.

It was action packed and I was at the edge of my seat from the moment the movie opened. To be honest, I have no idea who the lead female was. I’ve never heard of her name or even saw her in any movie before - or maybe I did and forgot all about it. Still, it was amazing to see the live-action. Yes, I, unlike some people do know it was based on an Anime way before it was released. I’ve seen maybe ten minutes worth of the Anime. It wasn’t the kind I usually watch, so I never find myself hooked onto it and kept watching. But, for some reason, I wanted to watch the live action and found myself loving it. My two companions who were watching the movie as well was impressed - well, one was scared shitless, but that was not the case.

Gianna Jun

Koyuki

Gianna Jun did an amazing job. I was impressed with her ability to be an action heroin. Though, she doesn’t actually steal the spotlight for me. I’ve seen Koyuki (Onigen) in The Last Samurai before. I thought she was brilliant in that movie but I never got around liking the movie. I saw her again in a Japanese drama - Kimi wa Petto (You’re my pet), and I must say, she had claim a place on my fave actress list ever since. Her potrayal of Onigen was surreal. It was strange seeing her playing the bad guy (or woman in her case). I wasn’t sure how to react and took a while to process it. Still, yes, I was very impressed - and my friends went; who? when I went; oh! It’s Koyuki!, the moment she appear in the very first scene. Of course I had to later explain who she was.

I have basically no problem with the CGI and every other things mentioned. Except for the fact the other girl’s name was Alice and her comment on “through the looking glass”, I’m a bit rusty on my Alice In Wonderland, but I picked it up and surprisingly, as always, I was the only one who knew what on earth that was. I’d still go and buy the DVD of course…

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